Hope

I've been so low for such a long time. I let the depression get the best of me. I have made myself sick over the ending of my first relationship and while there are still wounds to heal, this past week has really shown me a large step forward that I've taken. Even in the darkest of tines, there we see a light at the very end of our journey. This light, growing brighter each day, it warms my heart and soul and reminds me that everything will be okay. This light, it is hope. I have the ability again to hope for my future. I can see happiness in my future again. I feel excited and adventurous. There isn't one thing that had been making me feel this way, its a combination of things. I have one more step to take. I will be doing this soon. And I will finally be able to let go of what was never truly mine.

Tattoos

I think tattoos are amazing and ever since I was very young, I have wanted to get one. When I was ten and my mother died, I always said I would get a tattoo in memory of her. Now, ten years later, I finally did it. I got my first tattoo for her. A butterfly and a breast cancer ribbon over my heart. With her initials and her date of birth and the date that she died.

Audience?!

So, it has been brought to my attention that people are actually looking at my blog. Thank you guys!!!
I'd appreciate it if I could get some more feedback. Let me know what you're thinking, or eventually, I'd like to start reflecting on actual issues. I'll be talking about shows, movies, books, and music that I like. I"ll continue updating as I please about personal issues, this is my diary of sorts. Anyone who would like to know my thoughts on something, if I've never heard of it, I'll look it up and I'll figure it out. Please, comment below, even if you just say hi, or tell me where your from, or share your own blog with me, I'll take a look at it.
I"m interested in knowing who has been reading and checking out my blog. Help me out if you don't mind. :)

Mid terms

Its funny the way success makes your expectations of yourself higher. Normally around mid term time, I wouldn't study, and I would just go with the flow, if I fail, oh well, if I pass, cool!
This semester I've actually been able to maintain A averages in my classes. So, if I fail my midterms this semester, my averages will go down drastically.
I've never cared before. Now the pressure is on, and I'm nervous. I'm already disappointed in myself and I haven't even taken the exams yet! I have one at 3:30 today and I have an hour and a half break between classes, I plan to study in that time, just an overview of the information.
You guys, do your work on time. Don't procrastinate, and manage your time. This seriously sucks.
and I have been working more hours, which makes it hard to find the time to do homework.
Anyway, I'm in class now so I should probably stop writing.

Good morning, world!

I love waking up to the crunching sound of my back as I twist and turn and stretch and ACHE!

Dreams of Being Lost

Its no secret that I've been feeling a little lost in life. This is a fairly general feeling, in all things I just want to find my place. And of course this feeling that I have is made obvious b my very blog name "Lost Girl". We're all a little lost. I mean isn't life all about destinations and the journey we take to eventually become "found". It may be a lover who finds you, your soul mate. Or a child you have and you realize that this life that you're responsible for, this is your meaning! Last night I had a dream that I went away with friends.it was a few hours away from home and whatever we were doing there, I got left behind when everyone went home. I spent the duration of my dream trying to get a ride, trying to get ahold of my sisters to come pick me up. But none of the phones in my dream would work. I felt so afraid and trapped in this town and I didn't know where I was. Oddly enough, I found a local Wal-Mart. I got a GPS and somehow this helped me contact my sister and she took three hours to find me. The relief in my dream was matched soon after by the relief of me waking up. Unfortunately I had to immediately get ready for work. I had an uneasy feeling when I realized that neither of my sisters were home. Jessie,my oldest sister, went to pick up the other sister from work. When ty got back my anxious feeling went away and I was able to go to work with a little ease of mind. What a night that was. I'm sure I could analyze the dream, but its pretty obvious to me. My dream has a handful of separate meanings that are all relevant to me. But that's a dream. They all reflect our own subconscious. That's the end of this particular thought process. I'm off to dream some more before class tomorrow.

Working

I know that as a supposed adult, I am required to work. But I'd like to fast forward to a point of my life when I'm able to do a job that I love. I want to be a mother, a wife, and have the life I've always wanted. Hard work pays off, but today while I work, I've been day dreaming. I'm okay where I am in life, but sometimes I get so excited for my future.

A little about me

I'm a twenty year old college student. I don't have a mother, and I only recently got back into contact with my father. I don't say this for pity, that's just a big part of my past. I was raised by my two older sisters. That's the important part, my sisters are crazy, but they have been very influential to me. I talk a lot. Some people find it funny, most find it annoying but it is what it is. I love my friends and my family even though a lot of the time, they really get on my nerves. My major in college is Human Services. I hope to one day be a counselor. I love kids. I want to be a foster mother and I think I'd make a very decent foster mother. I have depression and that's why I have this blog, as an outlet. But feel free to read it.